sometimes i feel

sometimes i feel,
vulnerable...

i can't stop those sorrow from gushing in.
one moment i'm fine, and the other i'm not

still being so attached to those 'i used to'
all the memories, still as vivid as if it's still there,
... still the same, as if it has never left.

i can't stop those tears from trickling down
as if the wound is still fresh.

It's painful to look at the same old surrounding,
the same old scene,
the same old route,
the same old people,
that keeps reminding me i've to let them go.

I don't like tears welling up,
I don't want to lose control over my own tears.

Can i not have the strength to cry?
Please take it away from me.