Voiceless cries, deafening silence

Sometimes i feel that there's nobody I could pour out to.
Has anyone ever realised that i seldom speak of my heart matters? They had probably think that I'm just someone unsympathetic and devoid of feelings.

I just find that people complains too much, about how things doesn't go their way and that they worry too much. I hate it when people rush over to coax the little kid throwing tantrum and getting upset. Which is why many trivial issues i choose to keep it to myself.

But i guess bottling up reflects a stronger upfront. For the longest time, I have been playing the role of the listening ear. I feel tired of listening to problems too, so sometimes i avoid them... Call that an act of selfishness, I just cannot handle them, cannot always be there for someone who constantly feels unhappy. The more I couldn't even speak about the problems that I have been facing. How can I expect someone to cheer me up when they are drowning in their own sorrow. Sometimes I feel that nobody is truely listening to me, to my problems.

I really need an exchange of roles, I could really use a listening ear.